《千言万语》 The Words,
我的作品 by me.
第一部分 Part one.
老人站在雨中， The old man stood in the rain.
望着罗瑞和朵拉向豪华轿车走去的背影 He watched as Rory and Dora Jansen made their way to the limo.
雨幕仿佛在他们的面前分开，让出了一条道路。 Somehow it seemed as if the raindrops missed them.
谢谢，晚安 Thank you. Good night.
别这样，告诉妈别为我们担心。我们只是想让她好受点 No,no,tell Mom not to worry. Look,we just want her to feel better,okay?
行么？ All right?
嗯，不，不行。她把相机带来了，他们要拍很多照片 Yeah. No,no. She brought her camera.They're gonna take a lot of pictures.
来了很多摄影师，这是场很大的活动，爸 There's a lot of photographers there.It's an event,Dad.
好的，好，我们有...对，对 Okay,all right,we got... Yes,yes.
我们也爱你。爱你，查库斯 We love you too.Love you,Chuckles.
再见 Bye.
哈哈哈，我爸妈要激动死了 Ha-ha-ha.My parents are very excited.
他们是那么爱你 And they love you very much.
你激动么？ Are you excited?
当然了，今晚注定意义非凡，不是么？ Yeah,sure,it's a big night,right?
这是个莫大的荣誉 It's a big honor.
亲爱的，你只是紧张而已，没什么大不了的 Baby,it's... You're just nervous.It's normal.
我感觉有点太激动了，你知道么？ I'm just a little overwhelmed,you know?
这些都是我完全没预料到的 I didn't expect any of this.
你在哪？ Where are you?
这本来只是本不成气候的小作品 It was supposed to be a little book,you know?
我知道 I know.
真感谢您百忙中抽出时间来领取我们这小小的奖项 So nice that you could make time for our little award.
我们知道你日理万机，能请到您真是我们的荣幸 We know you're busy.The pleasure's all ours.
别这样，快来吧，你的书写的非常好，你也知道的 No. Come now. Your book is fabulous.But,of course,you know that.
你把书评全看完了，哈哈哈！ You've read all the reviews.Ha,ha,ha!
《窗前的泪水》让我们看见了一个 The Window Tears has introduced us to the one of the most exciting
久违的，如新星般 and sensitive young writers
在文学的地平线上缓缓升起的最为振奋人心也最为心思缜密的新生代作家 to appear on the literary horizon in a very long time.
我们很荣幸今晚在此地宣布 We are privileged to have with us here tonight
本年度美国艺术文学协会奖的得主是 the winner of this year's American Fellowship of Arts and Letters Award,
罗瑞·詹森先生 Mr. Rory Jansen.
谢谢 Thank you.
我不过是把那个真实的故事在想像的过程中记录下来而已 I simply tried to set down the truth as I imagined it.
那个男人和他的妻儿的故事 The story of one man,his wife and child.
我不知道这样小的一本书竟然能感动那么多来自不同领域的读者 I never thought a little book like this would affect so many different people.
希望我还有灵感写第二本书 I only wish I had an idea for my second book.
我不想占用在座的各位太多时间 I don't want to take up any more of your time.
我最后要说的就是 I'll just end by saying
今晚的这份荣耀确实是属于我的，谢谢大家 that the honor this evening is truly all mine. Thank you.
罗瑞·詹森已经拥有了他曾经梦想拥有的一切 Rory Jansen had everything he had ever dreamed of.
但那位老人却还在某地等待着 But somewhere,the old man was waiting.
他的一举一动或许都会让当下的一切发生巨变 And he would change everything.
在大学毕业之后，他们即刻搬到了布鲁克林 Right after college,they moved to Brooklyn.
在一间旧工厂的阁楼里安了家 They found a first floor loft in an old factory.
这是发生在这本书问世前五年的事了 It was five years before the book and the awards,
但罗瑞已经在脑海中勾画出自己生活该有的模样。 but Rory already knew what his life was supposed to look like.
直线地进来，就是这样 So straight back there.That's it.
还要往前？还有两英尺的样子 Keep going? Like two more feet.
这里么？嗯 Okay,here? Yeah.
好了，松手，可以放开了 Let it go. Just let go
他爱她 He loved her.
朵拉？ Dora?
- 他爱纽约。 - 我要掉下去啦！ He loved New York. You're gonna drop me!
他乐于为支付各式租金而疲于奔命 He loved fighting to make the rent.
为了他心中的艺术而不懈努力 Fighting to make his art.
就像他所崇拜的所有伟大的作家那样 Living like all the great writers he had idolized.
我觉得我们该在这挂张画 Okay,I think we should put pictures up there.
嗯 Mm.
另外我觉得你的桌子放到那边比较好 And I think your desk is fine where it's at over there.
浴室要漆成粉红色 And I think we should paint the bathroom pink.
绝对不要 Never.
一个年轻而努力的作家，试着让他的声音被世人听见。 A young,struggling writer,fighting to make his voice heard.
他喜欢瓶装的廉价红酒 He liked cheap bottles of wine.
多少钱？ 20美元 How much is it? It's 20 dollars.
白天，他漫游在大街小巷之间 And nothing to do with his days but wander the streets.
我就是看上眼了，有什么办法？ It matches my eyes.What do you want me to do?
夜晚，当城市熟睡之际 But at night,when the rest of the city slept,
他开始写作 he wrote.
谢谢，亲爱的 Thanks,babe.
再检查一遍我就定稿，嗯哼 Just doing a final pass. Ahem.
然后呢？ And then what?
然后我就去沃勒教授推荐的那间出版机构 And then I'm gonna head into an agent that Professor Waller recommended.
然后呢？ And then what?
然后我们要好好庆祝一番 And then we're gonna celebrate.
可是我们没有钱 But we don't have any money.
嘘，我们要好好庆祝一番 Shh. Then we're gonna celebrate.
让我先弄完这个 Just gotta finish this.
亲爱的。嗯？ Babe. Mm?
亲爱的 Babe.
亲爱的。别这样啦，我要先把这个做完。 Babe. Come on,I gotta finish this.
好么，我先把这个整好。好吧 Okay,I gotta finish this. Fine.
可别后悔哦 But you're missing out.
搞定 Finished.
听着，如果他不想做那就是不想做 Well,if he doesn't want to do it,he doesn't want to do it.
我说了我尽量 Listen,I said I'll try.
什么意思？当然是我说的 What do you mean? Of course that's my word.
周三前给我个准信，我到时候要下订单了 I gotta know by Wednesday,that's when I place the orders.
我会打回给你的，再见。 挺忙的啊？ I'll call you back. Goodbye. Working hard?
我的工作就是到处救火，它们从没消停过 All I do is put out fires.It never stops.
听着，我知道你很忙，所以我就开门见山了，可以么？ Listen,I know you're busy,so,I'm gonna come at you straight,okay?
到我办公室说 Let's go into my office.
要多少？ How much?
够下个月用的就行 Just enough for the next month to cover us.
然后呢？你下个月这时候不是还会再来一次 And then what? You show up again here next month?
我把书送到出版社了，他们说这书很有潜力 I got my book into an agent,says it's got potential.
他们给你钱了么？ Did they give you any money?
没有,但是,爸。事情不是你想的这样,这跟你做的这行是不一样的,知道么？ No,but,Dad,it doesn't work like that.It's not like your business,okay?
和你上班干活拿薪水不是一个概念 It's not like you do work,you get paid for it,okay?
我要付这样的那样的租金。不，是我在付你这样那样的租金。 I gotta pay my dues. No,I gotta pay your dues,right?
如果我不急钱我也不会找你了 Look,I wouldn't ask you if I didn't need it.
你以为我喜欢这样厚着脸皮来要钱么？ You think I like coming down here like this?
你以为我喜欢拒绝你么？ You think I like saying no?
我觉得我不是在帮你而是在伤害你的自尊心 I feel like I'm hurting you more than helping you.
是时候开始承担生活给你的责任了 You gotta take responsibility for your life.
我已经开始在承担生活加在我身上的责任了 I've been taking responsibility for my life.
我15岁就开始打工，在餐馆做传菜员 I've had a job since I was 15.I was a busboy.
在两年前，是我们共同决定 Okay,we decided two years ago
把写作当成我的终身事业的 I was gonna dedicate myself to being a writer.
我们在客厅里谈了很久 We had this conversation in the living room.
当时妈也在场，她同意了...那是很久以前的事了 Mom was right there. She agreed...But it's been a while.
或许你现在该把它当作一种爱好 So maybe now this should be a hobby
在你的生活步入正轨之前你最好别把它当作是你的主业 instead of a profession until you get your feet on the ground.
真是谢谢你鼓励我啊，老爹 Well,thanks for the encouragement,Pop.
朵拉呢？朵拉怎么办？ What about Dora? What about Dora?
你结婚也是要钱的吧 Well,I mean,you got to have money before you get married.
行了，浪费你的时间还真是抱歉啊 You know what? I'm sorry I wasted your time.
回来！嘿，坐下！坐下 Come here! Hey,sit down! Sit down.
现在谈什么结婚的事... Talking about marriage...
你是11岁小孩么？ What are you,11?
这是最后一次 This is the last time.
你需要找一份工作，稳定的，能够养活你自己的工作 You gotta get a job,something steady,support yourself.
这是身为男人必须迈出的一步 That's just part of being a man.
我已经在努力了，爸 I'm trying to be a man,Dad.
你要迈出的另外一步 Another part of being a man,
尽管这可能很痛苦，但你必须承认自身的局限性 no matter how painful it might be,is accepting your own limitations.
过来这儿 Come here.
我爱你，我也爱你 I love you. I love you.
我会还你的。嗯 I'm gonna pay you back,you know. Yeah.
随时欢迎你来这里工作 Yeah. Hey,you can always work here.
哈哈，真这样的话我们肯定要打起来 Ha-ha. We'd kill each other.
他继续动笔写作 He continued to write,
坚信他有一个需要被讲述的故事 believing he had a story to tell.
他将作品送到一切有可能被发表的地方 He sent his work anywhere they might publish him.
但他收到的都是婉言谢绝或是表示不感兴趣的回函 But all he heard back was rejection,disinterest,
还有一种情况，它的杀伤力最大，那就是投去的作品如石沉大海 or the loudest sound of all:
再无回音 Silence.
最终，我们的伟大作家罗瑞·詹森，被迫找了一份工作 Finally,the great writer,Rory Jansen was forced to take a day job.
他在纽约的某间大出版社找了个职位 He found a position at one of the biggest publishing houses
希望能借工作之便推销自己的作品 in New York,hoping to make some connections.
我在这找过无数的关系了 I made a million connections here.
什么，你是个作家？是啊 What,you're a writer? Yeah.
我把稿子投遍了这附近的出版社 I got all my stuff into different agents around here.
真高兴我的事业并非一帆风顺 I'm actually glad it's taking me a while to break through.
这给了我更好地了解市场和形成属于自己的文风的机会 It's given me a chance to develop my style,understand the market.
所以你是写什么的？ So,what kind of stuff do you write?
愤怒的年轻人之类的。哈哈哈 Angry young men,I guess. Ha-ha-ha.
我以前也写这些 I used to be like that.
不过现在我写科幻小说 Now I write sci-fi.
人都是逐渐成熟的，你需要的只是时间 You mature,you know. Just give it time.
你今晚要写东西么？ Are you gonna write tonight?
我只想呆在这看部电影，吃点东西或者什么 I'll just stay in and watch a movie or get food or something. Ahem.
好吧 Okay.
不知不觉中，她已然扎根在他的生活里，成了不可或缺的一部分 "Without even knowing it,they had settled routine into their lives.
在一个星期五的下午，他们在市政厅登记结婚了 And on a Friday afternoon,they were married at City Hall.
然后去巴黎度了蜜月 "They honeymooned in Paris.
你好了没？ You ready?
好了 Yup.
再两分钟 Two minutes,okay?
再两分钟就好，别再逛古董店了 Just two more minutes.No more antique shops.
嗯，谢谢。 把那个放下 Mm,thank you. Put that down.
-罗瑞 - 克朗代克474号 - Rory. - Klondike 474.
重复一次，克朗... Repeat 47...
你觉得这个怎么样？有点像... What do you think of this? It's like some...
真漂亮 That's nice.
你觉得怎么样？ What do you think of it?
我觉得这包太旧了 I think it's old.
我觉得这个皮包很棒 I think it's great.
稍微保养一下，你就能带着它上班了 I feel like if we clean it up,you can use it for work.
是吗？ 多漂亮啊 Yeah? It's classy.
我替你买下来了 I'm gonna get it for you.
谢谢啦，詹森女士 Thank you,Mrs. Jansen.
在蜜月期结束后，他们回到了纽约 They returned to New York,and the honeymoon was over.
所有的信件和包裹都要交到助理手上 All mail and packages go to the assistants only.
嘿，艾琳 Hey,Irene.
然后，在事前毫无征兆的情况下 And then,with no warning at all,
罗瑞接到了他期待已久的那个电话 Rory got the call that he had been waiting for."
谢谢，可以 Thank you. Okay.
真的非常感谢，好的，没问题 Thank you very much. All right,okay.
这家出版社向来以品味无可挑剔著称 The agent had a reputation for impeccable taste
它们发掘了许多文学新星 and discovering young literary stars.
不错 It's good.
真的很不错，文笔很好 It's really good. I mean,it's a beautiful piece of writing,
你该为自己感到非常自豪 and the truth is that you should be very proud of yourself.
真的很感谢您的称赞。 Thank you very much. Wow.
我非常用心在写。看得出来 I worked very hard on it.The work shows.
看看你，真想不到你这么年轻 I look at you,I can't believe how young you are.
哈哈，那么 Ha-ha-ha. Well...
我必须告诉你，罗瑞，你的作品是那样的真诚 I have to tell you,Rory,I just see so much truth in your work.
我对此感到十分钦佩 I... I am... I'm so impressed.
哇，真不敢相信。这个...呵呵 Wow,I can't believe this.This is... Heh-heh.
呼 Whoo.
但不幸的是，出版业在这个非常时期下 But unfortunately,the nature of the publishing business right now,
真的相当不景气，我不知道 at this particular time,is such that I don't know
该怎么出版一本这样的书 how to publish a book like this.
听我说，罗瑞，没有人会买这样的书的 Look,Rory,no one is gonna support a book like this.
这样的书？ 还是一个没有名气的作者写的 Book like this? From an unknown writer.
这本书卖不出去的 There's just no market for it.
当下，对任何一个作家来说 Now,it's hard for any writer,under any circumstances,
要在白手起家的情况下出版自己的书真的很困难，而且这本书 without a track record to get published. And this book...
有着相当强烈的私密性 I mean,it's so interior.
私密性？什么意思？ Interior? What is that?
它很美，很精妙，就像... It's artistic,it's subtle. It's...
就像一件艺术品 it's a piece of art.
所以我最好把它塞到书架的某个角落然后忘记这回事么 So this book,I should just shelve this and forget about it.
我...我花了三年的时间写这本书 I just... I spent three years working on it.
我在试着把实话告诉你 I'm just trying to be honest with you.
试着告诉你当下出版业的现状 I'm just telling you the reality of the situation.
要有耐心 Have patience.
如果我不相信你的才能的话，我也不会把你请来这里了 You know,I wouldn't have brought you in here if I really didn't believe in you.
一切都会好起来的 You're gonna be fine.
九月份我们有两周的假，我们打算去旅行 So we have two weeks in September. We're planning a trip.
我们要租一艘...什么来着？ 我们要租一艘小船 We think we're gonna charter... What? We're gonna charter a boat.
我们要去土耳其，不过我们还是要租艘船 We're going to Turks,but we're gonna get a boat.
那种从远处看来风光无限的小船。这一点都不疯狂 Like a 50-footer. Nothing crazy.
真不错，但是那是九月的头两周 Great,but it's the first two weeks of September.
那时候我们正要...找个人顶班呗 It's the beginning... Get a sub.
你肯定不想错过这个 You don't wanna miss this.
这绝对会很棒的 This is gonna be truly great. It's gonna be amazing.
不管是早餐，中餐，晚餐，你都可以 Breakfast,lunch,dinner.You pull out fish,
直接把鱼从海里钓上来，交给厨师变成菜端上桌。太棒了 right out of the ocean,they cook them up. It's incredible.
在海上你可以潜泳，潜水。一切东西到了船上都会变得大不同 Snorkeling,diving.Totally different on a boat.
他忍不住在脑中回想那个故事 He couldn't stop thinking about that story.
它从哪里来？ Where did it come from?
作者姓甚名谁？ Who had written it?
这些文字 In those words,
让他看见了自己所渴望得见的一切 he had been confronted by everything he had ever aspired to be,
也让他看清了自己永远无法成为一个卓越作家的现实 and the reality of what he would never become.
伙计，你在想什么呢？ Buddy,what's going on with you,man?
-你神游到哪去了 -我们真希望你能一起来 - You're 100 miles away. - We want you to go.
把嘴闭上行么？ Why don't you shut up?
罗瑞！ Rory!
搞什么鬼？ 别，什么都别问我 What the hell? Don't. Just don't.
我现在什么都不想做。你怎么了？ Really,I can't right now. What is the matter with you?
我不知道... I don't...
你为什么会在此时此刻出现在此地？ How the fuck do you end up here?
罗瑞 Rory.
看看我的生活，看看你的生活，再看看他的生活 I look at my life,I look at your life,I look at his life,
我看着我父亲的生活，看着每个人的生活 I look at my father's,I look at everybody's,
我对每个人所处在的当下的起源一无所知 I don't have a clue how anybody winds up where they do.
我真的不知道。你不需要知道 I don't know. You don't have to know.
我不知道！ 没关系的！你不需要了解这些 I don't know! It's okay! You don't have to know.
以后多得是时间思考，罗瑞 There's so much time,Rory.
我现在他妈的是在谈论自己的生活啊！ I'm talking about my fucking life here!
你的生活怎么了？它不是我想像的那样！ What about your life? It's not right!
一切都不是我想像的那样！ Nothing's right!
罗瑞，你说这话的时候考虑过我的感受么？ Rory,how is that supposed to make me feel?
你知道我有什么感觉么？ How is that supposed to make me feel?
我不是我想像中的那个人，知道么？ I'm not who I thought I was,okay?
我不是 I'm not.
我害怕我永远无法成为那种人 And I'm terrified that I never will be.
对不起 I'm sorry.
没关系的 It's okay.
他不知道自己为什么要这样做 He didn't know why he was doing it.
他只想感觉文字从他的指尖下流过 He just wanted to feel the words pass through his fingers,
从他的头脑中穿过的感觉 through his mind.
他把纸上的文字重新输入到电脑里 He retyped every word as it was written on those pages.
没有改动过一个段落，一个逗号，甚至是其中夹杂的拼写错误 He didn't change a period,a comma,or even correct the spelling mistakes.
他想要知道 He needed to know what it felt like
触摸这些文字是怎样的一种感觉 to touch it,
哪怕一刻也好 if only for a moment.
罗瑞，你能过来一下么？ Rory,can you come here?
怎么了？ What's up?
嘿，你还好吧？ Hey. You all right?
怎么了，亲爱的 What's wrong,babe?
嘿 Hey.
亲我一下 Just kiss me.
嘿，怎么了 Hey,what is it?
我的天啊，发生什么事了？ My God. What?
你怀孕了？ What? Are you pregnant?
不是，我希望你听我说 No,no,no.I want you to listen to me.
我今天在用电脑工作的时候，呃... I was working on the computer today,and,um...
我发誓我之前从没翻看过你的东西 And I swear to you I've never gone through your things before,
但是你的书的内容就显示在屏幕上 but your book was on the screen
我开始看第一个句子 and I started reading one sentence
接着是第二句，然后我就停不下来了 Then I read the second,and I couldn't put it down.
听我说，你已经成为了你想成为的一切 Listen to me. You are everything you've always wanted to be.
朵拉，你不知... Dora,you don't under...
你为什么要瞒着我 Why would you keep this a secret from me?
不是，我没有瞒着你 No,it's not a secret.
这些故事和你之前写的都不一样 These stories,they're so different from anything you've ever done before.
感觉就像你不再回避自己内心的想法 It's as if you stopped hiding.
它们更加饱满，更加真实，也更为诚恳 They're fuller,they're truer,they're more honest.
我从小说里看到了你自己的一部分 There are parts of you in this novel that I always knew were there,
属于你但我从未见过的一部分 but I had never seen before.
我从来没...什么部分？ I've never... What parts?
哪个部分？ What parts?
全部 All of you.
你的全部，亲爱的 All of you,baby.
你要让大家看到真实的自己 This has to be seen.
听我说 Just listen to me,okay.
你总是说你最想成为的就是一名优秀的作家 You always said that all you ever wanted to do was be a good writer.
有了这个，罗瑞 With this,Rory,
你就是一个伟大的作家 you're a great writer.
亲爱的 Baby,
把它带去公司给某个人看看吧 take it to work and show it to someone.
就算你不是为了自己 And if you're not gonna do it for yourself,
也为我做一次吧，好么 then please do it for me.
不好意思打扰您一下，卡特勒先生。嘿，罗瑞，你好么？ Sorry to bother you,Mr. Cutler. Hey,Rory. How are you today?
挺好的。那就好 Good. Good.
您有空么？ Ahem. Do you have a minute?
现在有点忙，有什么事？ I'm kind of busy here. What can I do for you?
我在这干了差不多两年了，之前从来没有求人办过事 I've worked here for,over two years.I haven't asked anybody for anything.
我觉得你现在就有事找我办了 I have a feeling you're about to ask for a thing now.
你看，这本小说，嗯.. You see,there's this novel,um...
我知道你每天都要审很多稿件 And I know that you get submissions all the time and you're very busy,
不求别的，只希望您对我的作品发表些意见 but I don't want anything other than your opinion.
感激不尽 I would really appreciate it.
日子一天天过去 Days passed.
先是几周，然后是几个月 Weeks became months.
等秋天来到的时候，罗瑞已经忘了这本书的事了 And by the time autumn arrived,Rory had all but forgotten about the book.
罗瑞 Rory.
什么事，卡特勒先生？ Can I help you,Mr. Cutler?
进来一下。我刚教他到一半... Come on in here for a second. I'm in the middle of training...
不要紧，他待会能跟上的。把门关上 Yeah,yeah,he'll find his way back. Shut the door.
你知道我昨晚做了些什么吗？ You know what I did last night?
我本来是不想搭理她的，不过在黛布拉的强烈要求下 On the absolute insistence of Debra,and God knows I tried to blow her off,
我昨晚读了你的小说 I read your novel last night.
真的吗？ You did?
你给这间出版社以外的人看过这书么？ Have you,shown this to anyone else,anyone outside the agency?
没有，你是唯一一个看过的 No,no,you're the only one that's seen it.
我是说，除了我妻子之外唯一一个看过的 I mean,outside of my wife.
她觉得这书怎么样？ What does she think?
她就是那个坚持要我把书稿给您看的人 She was the one that insisted I show it to you.
我都等不及要当面向她表达我的感谢之情了 Well,I can't wait to meet her and thank her.
罗瑞，我非常愿意向公众引荐你 Rory,I would very much like to represent you
和你的作品 and your work.
你创作了 You've written
一部非凡的文学作品 a remarkable work of fiction.
没有突如其来的喜悦 There was no epiphany.
没有他成长过程中喜欢过的那些书中 No sign from the gods to point him in the right direction
曾经出现过无数次的来自上帝的指引 like there had been in all the books that he had loved growing up.
他所要做的不过是在合同上签下自己的名字 All he had to do was sign the contract.
这本书无论是在评论界还是商业上都取得了巨大的成功 The book was a unanimous critical and commercial success.
谢谢。你好 Thank you. Hi.
他成了纽约文坛的新秀 He was the darling of the New York literary world.
本年度美国艺术文学协会奖的得主是 The winner of this year's American Fellowship of Arts and Letters Award,
罗瑞·詹森先生 Mr. Rory Jansen.
为我们的作家儿子干杯 Let's raise a glass here to our son,the writer.
干杯，干杯 To Rory. To Rory.
罗瑞·詹森做出了他的选择 Rory Jansen had made his choice.
接着他遇见了那位老人 And then he met the old man.
第一部分，完 That's,um,the end of part one.
谢谢 Thank you.
谢谢到场支持的各位 Thank you for coming.
大家别围那么紧，给他留点呼吸的地 Come along,people. Give the man some breathing room.
毕竟是他的休息时间嘛 It's his break,after all.
谢谢 Thank you.
如果你想躺下放松一会的话 If you want to lie down or relax for a while,
你可以到休息室去 you know where the room is.
我在杂志上看到你喜欢2005罗塞红酒 I read that you liked the 2005 Rose.
别忘了，克雷敦，只有30分钟的休息，没时间做前戏了 Don't forget,Clayton,30 minutes,so no time for foreplay.
不好意思。没关系，我看了他的书 I'm so sorry.That's okay,I've read his books.
哈 Heh-heh.
所以，你叫什么来着？ So,what'd you say your name was again?
我还没说呢，我叫迪妮埃拉 I didn't. It's Daniella.
嗯，很美的名字 Mmm. That's a beautiful name.
你没有更好的回应的话了么？ Can't you think of something better than that?
那这个怎么样 Well,how about this:
他们在后头给我准备了间休息室 They gave me a little green room back there.
那里有很棒的红酒和奶酪，我现在也不用给人签名了 It's got really great wine and cheese. And I won't have to sign any more books,
到那里之后说不定我会想出更多有意思的话 and maybe I'll think of something more interesting to say.
想去么？ Wanna go?
你带路，来吧 Lead the way. Come on.
别说话，我的喉咙需要休息下 Shut up. I have to rest my voice.
刚才读的时候我嗓子干得要命，接下来还有一整个部分要念呢 It gets really dry when I read,and I have a whole other section.
别骗我。没骗你 Don't bullshit me. I'm not.
没关系的，反正我已经了解你的一切了 It's okay. I already know everything about you anyway.
真的？一切？ Really? Everything? Mm.
一切 Everything.
你都了解些什么 What do you know?
我知道你讨厌番茄 I know you hate tomatoes.
我知道 I know
你最喜欢的爵士专辑是麦斯·戴维斯的《有些忧郁》 Miles Davis' Kind of Blue is your favorite jazz recording.
你爱看重播的《干杯酒吧》 I know you love to watch Cheers reruns.
我还知道你学了七年的拉丁文 And I know you took Latin for seven years
而且每场拉丁文考试都作弊 and cheated on every single test.
等等，你是怎么知道的？ Wait a minute.How do you know that?
《绅士月刊》，你自己说的 Esquire,you said it yourself.
看来我得开始读点关于自己的采访了，哈哈哈 I've got to start reading my interviews.Ha-ha-ha.
那么... So...
你还知道什么？ what else do you know?
我知道你和你的妻子在大学第一年相爱 I know that you've been with your wife since your freshman year of college.
扬基棒球队的每场主场比赛你都会到场观看 I know that you go to every single Yankees home game,
我还知道，你，克雷敦·哈蒙德，是一个天才 and I know that you,Clayton Hammond,are a genius.
哈，我还以为你无所不知呢 Heh. Shows how much you know.Why's that?
我去年错过了两场扬基队的主场比赛 I missed two Yankee games last year.
不好意思 Sorry.
另外，我妻子和我，嗯... And,my wife and I are,um...
已经分手了 separated.
我知道，但是你还是戴着婚戒 I actually did know that,but you're wearing a ring.
是啊 Yeah.
所以，迪妮埃拉 So,Daniella,
你今晚是怎么进到后台的？ how did you get backstage tonight?
我是哥伦比亚大学毕业的，我求我的教授把票让给我 I'm a grad student at Columbia,and I begged my professor for his ticket.
我和你一样，拿过艾尔曼奖学金 I won the Elman Fellowship,just like you.
哈蒙德先生，他们都在等你出场呢 Mr. Hammond,they're ready for you.
没错，哈蒙德先生，我们都在等你了 Yes,Mr. Hammond,we're ready for you.
这是小说的第二部分，也是今晚我朗读的最后一部分 This is the second and,final selection of the evening.
这是一个清爽的秋季早晨 It was a crisp and clear autumn morning.
那位老人穿着和前一天一样的衣服 The old man was dressed exactly as the day before.
我帮你叫辆出租车把？不用了，我搭公交就好，谢谢 Can I hail you a cab? I'm gonna take the bus,thanks.
不客气 You're welcome.
到中央公园么？很好 Go to Central Park? Great.
今天感觉如何？ How you doing today?
挺好的，你呢？ I'm okay. How are you?
你懂我的意思么？当然 You know what I mean? Sure.
你在看什么书？ What's that book you're reading?
约翰·方德的《询问尘埃》 Ask the Dust,John Fante.
你怎么发现他的？几乎没人认识他 How did you find him? Nobody knows him.
你也读方德的书？ You read Fante?
读？我认识他 Read him? I knew him.
你认识约翰·方德 You knew John Fante.
在洛杉矶见过他 Met him in Los Angeles.
一定是1958年的事 Must have been 1958.
他本来可以成为众人皆知的作家的 He should have been someone that everybody knows.
是啊 Yeah.
发生了什么事？ What happened?
人生啊 Life.
那种感觉如何？ So how does it feel?
什么感觉？ How does what feel?
成为众所周知的名人的感觉 To be somebody everybody knows?
我从来没想过这个 You know,I don't really think about it.
别装了 Come on.
别骗我这个老骗子了 Don't bullshit an old bullshitter.
It feels good,right?
自己的作品获得承认的感觉很好吧 Feels good to have your work recognized,yeah.
嗯，当然了 Mm,yeah,heh-heh,I'm sure it does,yeah.
你现在在餐馆都有预留的位置了吧 Bet you get good tables in restaurants now.
确实 I do. Mm.
生活对你很仁慈 Life was kind to you.
上帝自你出生起就对你微笑 Gods smiled when you were born.
他们从天上向下看，说：“哦，看那儿，那孩子是个作家 They looked down and they said,"Ooh,look there,that one is a writer.
他的文字会出名的。” His words will be celebrated."
哈哈哈，我不知道这事到底有没有这么神。我只是比较幸运罢了 Ha-ha-ha. I don't know if it's that grandiose. I just got lucky.
我写了本书，大家又正好喜欢读 I wrote a book,people happened to like it.
我是说，我不知道这些是如何发生呃 I mean,I don't know how things happen.
我写了两本书 I mean,I wrote two books
如果这本书不曾出版的话，那剩下的也不可能了 that wouldn't have gotten published if that one never did.
我肯定他们现在会乐意出版的 Well,I'll bet they'll publish them now.
我读了你的书 I read your book.
我非常非常喜欢 I liked it very,very much.
谢谢，很感谢您喜欢它 Thank you. I appreciate that.
现在请容我这个老书迷 And now forgive an old fan for a moment.
说两句话 Just indulge me.
你写了 You wrote about Paris
战后的巴黎。嗯 right after the war. Mm.
在我读你的故事的同时，我仿佛置身于当时的场景里 And when I read your stories,I was right there.
我品尝着美酒的香醇 I tasted that wine,the sweetness of that wine.
我.. I...
和那个女孩做爱 made love to the girl.
在那个早晨坐在咖啡座上 I sat in the cafe that morning
畅想着未来对我而言的意义 wondering what the future held for me.
或者它毫无意义可言 Or if it held anything at all for me.
在夜晚 I heard...
我听见那个孩子哭泣的声音 that child cry in the night.
我能感觉到 And I felt the longing
他对于远方家乡的怀恋和渴望 for my home so far away.
你确实是个好作家，我的朋友 You are some writer,my friend.
谢谢 Thank you.
谢谢，真的很感谢 Wow,thank you.I really do appreciate that.
我..喔，我得走了，我妻子... I...Wow,I have to go. My wife...
我懂，我懂 I know,I know.
艺术家在谈论自己的作品时总会有些不自在 Artists always feel uncomfortable talking about their work.
不不不。我在想，你能不能 No,no,no.I wonder if there's just one thing
为我做一件事。当然 you'd do for me. Sure. Ahem.
你可不可以 I wondered if you'd autograph
在我的这本书上签个名。当然可以 my copy of your book. Of course.
你有带笔么？ Do you have a pen?
一个不随身带笔的作家 A writer without a pen.
呃 Well...
今天是读书的日子嘛 Well,today's a reading day.
没错 Yes.
我有笔 Well,I have a pen.
那么... So...
我有个故事想说 I do have a story.
一个非常好的故事 A very good story.
我知道你经常能听到这句话，但我觉得你会喜欢这个故事的 Now,I know you get this line all the time,but I think you'll like the story.
如果我打算把这个故事告诉你，而你把它写下来的吧 If I was to tell you the story and you wrote it,
那么，或许 well,then,maybe
你能把我的名字写进书里 you could give me a little credit?
这好像不太公平，不是么？ Well,that wouldn't be fair,would it?
再见 Have a good day.
这是一个男人的故事，他写了一本书，然后这本书丢失了 It's about a man who wrote a book and then lost it
接着一个平凡的孩子找到了它 and the pissant kid who found it.
你不是走了么？ You still here?
想要听我的故事么？ Do you want to hear my story?
或者你没时间听了？ Or don't you have the time?
那么我就说了.. So...
当时是1944年，一个18岁的孩子 it's 1944,and there's this 18-year-old kid,
他是军队里的一员士兵，从来没上过战场 a soldier in the army,never saw any action.
在战后，他被派到了巴黎 He was sent to Paris right at the end of the war.
这就是他 There he is,
一个脸上总是挂着笑的傻孩子 a dumb kid with a dumb-ass grin on his face.
他在巴黎生活 There he is in Paris.
对它来说，那不过是位于这该死的世界的另一端的一座城市罢了 To him,it might as well have been the other side of the goddamned world.
可笑的是，他所在的小队总是被派遣去做一些最不得体的小差事 It was a joke that his unit was constantly drawing the worst details.
大多数时候，他们都在清理 Most of the time,they were relaying sewage pipes
德军占领时期被毁坏的下水管道 blown apart by the Germans during the occupation.
那真是世界上最糟糕的工作了 It was god-awful work.
在街上都能闻到臭味了 Street smell.
我有点想犹他州了 I miss Utah.
但这孩子不知怎么地却很开心 Somehow the kid was happy,
就像在污泥里打滚的猪仔一样 like a pig in shit.
小队里的多数成员 The guys in his unit,most of them were different
都和他以前认识的人大不一样 from anybody he'd known in his neighborhood.
他们来自各地，有些人的故乡是他从未听过名字的小城 They were from all over,little towns he'd never even heard of.
这可怜的孩子大概是挖到地雷了 Poor kid probably hit a mine.
把他运到停尸间吧 Let's get the body to the morgue.
这是在他在从军岁月中唯一一次见到尸体 That was the only dead body he saw his whole time in the Army.
这是他们连队里最为特别的一个人 There was this one guy in his unit real different to him,
他有文化，是个书虫 an intellectual,real bookworm,
一段时间过后，他成了男孩最好的朋友 and over time,he became the boy's best friend.
他把书借给他读 He lent him some books to read,
在读了第一本书之后 the first books the kid had ever read about anything.
他生平第一次 For the first time
看见了一个比眼前所见更为广阔无垠的世界 he saw a world that was bigger than the one he'd been born into.
他想要更多的东西 And he wanted more.
他想要成为更好的人 He wanted to be something more.
一个作家，没错 A writer. Yeah,
但他不知道这个词的真正含义 but he had no idea what the word really meant. Heh.
也不知道要怎样去追求这个目标 Certainly didn't have a clue about how to go about it.
你在费城长大？ You grew up in Philadelphia?
在伦敦出生，在费城长大 Grew up in Philly,but born in London.
伦敦？ London?
他刚才说什么？ What did she just say?
她刚才说什么？我的法语不太好 What did she say? My French is a little weak,
不过我肯定她刚才说的是她爱你 but I'm pretty sure she said she loves you.
哈哈哈，去和她搭话吧。不要 Ha-ha-ha. Go talk to her. No.
去啊，哈哈。这一点都不好笑 Go. Ha-ha. That's not funny.
去和她说几句话 Go talk to her.
快点，你不去的话我去 Come on,if you don't,I will.
后来他发现她当时说的其实是： He found out some time later that what she'd actually said was:
“赶紧结帐走人。” "Pay your check and get the hell out of here."
但这不也是种命运的安排么？ But who was he to question fate?
他学会了一个法语词 He'd picked up one word of French.
是的 Oui.
她知道了一个英语词 And she knew one word of English.
是的 Yes.
这是一段完美的恋情 It was the perfect relationship.
冰淇淋怎么说？ What is ice cream?
怎么了？ What?
怎么了？我觉得脑袋发凉？ What? It's cold in my head.
脑袋发凉？凉得头痛么 Cold in your head? Yeah,pain.
像这样，把你的手指放进这里 Go like this. Take your finger like this.
放到舌头下面，这是个小偏方。这样头就不痛了 Under your tongue. It's a little trick. It'll make it go away,okay?
- 还是疼 - 等一会嘛 It doesn't wanna go.Give it a second,okay?
现在呢？ Now?
不痛了 It's gone.
你看吧 Told you.
好啦，再来一口 Okay,one more.
之后发生了什么？ What happened?
他退伍了 He got discharged from the Army.
他的世界恍然间 But what once was his whole world suddenly seemed...
缩小了许多 small.
在他离开期间一切都不曾改变 Nothing had changed since he'd been away.
除了他自己 Except him.
他已经变了 He had changed.
这是他人生中第一次开始 For the first time in his life,
尝试着写作 he tried to write.
试着写一些有关巴黎的事 Tried to write about Paris,
他的所见 about what he'd seen
所感 and how he'd felt.
但他很快便词穷了 But the words just wouldn't come.
他知道自己想要怎样的人生 He knew the life he wanted.
他知道为了得到这份人生他该做些什么 He knew what he had to do to get it.
他开始成为写作者的学徒 The young man began his apprenticeship as a writer.
在一份英文周刊杂志社找了份记者的工作 He got a job as a journalist for a small English-language weekly.
当时为了方便那些移居海外者，这类刊物如雨后春笋般兴起 There were a lot of them springing up for all the expats,
但凡是会写几个字的人都能被招募进去 and they'd hire anyone who could string a few words together.
那是一处学习的好地方 It was a good place to learn.
两周后，他迎娶了西莉亚 He married Celia two weeks later.
孩子重六磅三盎司，眉眼之间像极了她的母亲 Six pounds and three ounces,eyes like her mother.
那是他人生的新高地 That was his moment,
但他却浑然未觉 not that he knew it at the time.
也许每个人都一样 Maybe one never does.
她曾经很爱哭 She used to cry so much.
有时候他甚至无法集中精力思考，更不要说写作了 At times,he could barely think,let alone write.
先生？ Sir?
她生病了 She was sick.
他的妻子？ The wife?
我的女儿 My daughter.
他束手无策 There was nothing he could do.
西莉亚和从前不一样了 Celia was never the same.
他也变了许多 And he wasn't the same either,
他试着掩盖真相，但那只是徒劳 even though he tried to pretend.
我待会就回来 I'll be back later.
西莉亚？ Celia?
她说她去乡下找她母亲了 She said she'd gone home to her mother's in the country.
她需要一些思考的时间 Needed time to think.
她需要离开一段时间 She needed to be apart.
他开始废寝忘食 He couldn't remember sleeping or eating.
文字从他的体内源源不断地涌出 The words simply poured out of him.
汇聚成一道他亦无法控制的急流 A stream that he could not control
他不知道这些文字源自何处 nor question where they came from.
词语累积成了段落，段落累计成了篇章 The words became form,the form became whole,
两周以后，这本书完稿了 and after two weeks,it was finished.
然后呢？ And then?
然后他睡了一觉 Then he slept.
睡得很沉很沉，一个梦都没有做 Dreamless sleep.
他醒来以后清理了公寓，接着启程去找他的妻子 When he woke,he cleaned the apartment and went to find his wife.
她就坐在她小时候的那个房间里 She looked like a child to him,
在他眼里她变成了一个孩子 sitting in the room she grew up in.
她求他一个人回巴黎去 She begged him to go back to Paris without her.
走吧，走 Just go. Go.
几周过后，她终于回家了 A few weeks later,she finally came home.
对于她的归来，他感到相当欣慰 He was so grateful to have her home.
谢谢 Thank you.
他只想抱着她 He just wanted to hold her,
再一次看见她脸上的笑容 see her laugh again.
所以你，嗯...你读了我的故事么？ So you,um...? You read my story?
没有，我还没准备好 No,I'm not ready yet.
她说她想要重新开始 She said she wanted to start life over.
没关系的 Well,that's okay.
听她的语气好像世界上没有比这更容易做成的事了 Said it like it would be the easiest thing in the world to do.
就放在那个皮公文包里 It's in the valise here.
没有 No.
怎么会这样，我把它带上火车了啊 I don't understand,I had it with me on the train.
什么？我把它带上车了 What? I had it with me on the train.
但是放在另一个箱子里了？ But it was in a different case?
这本书本来没有什么特别的意义 It shouldn't have meant anything,
但书写这个故事的过程却以某种方式给予了他救赎 but writing that story had somehow saved him.
为什么她无法理解这一点呢？ How could she not understand?
许多年来，他一直无法原谅自己不能为那些愚蠢的文字释怀 For years,he'd never forgive himself for caring about those stupid words.
你知道么？ You know what?
没了孩子的可不单是你一个人 You are not the only one who lost her.
她忘了点东西。你听我说！ She left something.Listen to me,okay?
他们一度试图把生活修补回原来的样子 For a time,they tried to patch things up together,
但过去是无法被抹消的 but you can't erase the past,
无论你有多想这么做，都于事无补 no matter how much you want to.
这个年轻人第一次对家庭产生了渴望 And for the first time,the young man began to long for home.
很快，这种渴望变得越来越强烈 Soon the longing grew so strong he...
于是他离开了 He left.
再也没有回过巴黎 Never went back to Paris.
再也没见过西莉亚 Never saw Celia again.
在丢失了那份原稿之后 But after he lost those pages...
他再也无法写下 he was never able to set down one word...
一段能让他满意的文字 that looked right to him.
或许他是害怕再度陷入那种苦痛 Maybe he was afraid of going that deep again.
或许他的技巧已经被上帝收了回去。不管怎样，他不再尝试 Perhaps he just lost the knack.Anyway,he stopped trying.
一段时间以后 And after a time...
他在北部找到了一个小城，在那里定居了 he found a little town up north,settled there.
终于获得了某种意义上的安宁 Found a kind of peace.
那种感觉如何？ How's that feel?
等等 Wait.
故事还没有结束 It's not over yet.
真正有趣的现在才开始 This is where it really gets interesting.
在过往的回忆逐渐褪色以后 Long after all of this faded into the past,
那个年轻人，现在成了一个老人 the young man,who was now an old man,
走进了一家书店 wandered into a bookstore.
书封的简介上说，这是由一个新人所讲述的 The blurb said that the author of the story is a new fresh voice
一个崭新的故事 who had something new to say.
我翻开书，读了下去 I opened the book and began to read.
你的书 Your book.
故事的叙述者站在婴儿床前 And the narrator was standing over a crib.
他的孩子奄奄一息 His child was dying,
而他却束手无策 and there was nothing he could do.
我... Look...
我.. I...
这是个误会，我... A misunderstanding,I...
不，不，我的朋友 No,no,my friend,
没有什么好误会的，没有。我在... there's no misunderstanding,no. I found...
你别为自己开脱了 You can't slide out of it now.
这些是我的文字 These are my words,
我的故事 my stories.
窗前的泪水又是什么鬼玩意儿 What the fuck is a window tear anyway?
我不知道你是怎么找到它的 I don't know how you did it.
老实说，我也不在乎这个 To be brutally honest,I don't care.
我只是觉得 I just thought you should know the story
你有必要了解这些故事背后的故事，以防有人问起 behind these stories in case anyone was to ask.
或许现在你已经有了写作第二本书的素材了 Maybe now you've got your next book.
他坐在长椅上，周围的一切都变得沉寂起来 And he sat on that bench,unaware of the world,
时间仿佛凝固了 or of time passing around him.
过了几个小时，太阳终于落山了 After a few hours,the sun finally set
罗瑞·詹森缓缓起身 and Rory Jansen slowly rose,
找寻着归家的道路 searching for his way home.
谢谢各位 Thank you.
如果你们想知道故事剩下的部分 If you wanna know the rest of the story,
那你们就需要买下这本书 you'll just have to buy the book.
关于你的作品，你似乎在对道德行为作出评判前犹豫了一下 Your work,you seem hesitant to draw any conclusions about our moral behavior.
- 对此你是怎么看的？ -没错，我是犹豫了 - Do you make any statements about that? - Yes,I am hesitant.
我认为对艺术和艺术家而言 What I think is great about art and artists
他们的伟大之处在于提出 is that we get to ask the questions...
那些自己永远也不会知道答案的问题 even though we may never know the answers.
失陪一会 Excuse me a minute.
失陪了，女士 Excuse me,Miss,
能先让我看看你的身份证么 may I seem some ID first?
你看起来快透不过气了。没这回事，我自在着呢 You looked like you were drowning. No,no. I'm in my element.
你还想呆在这么？ You wanna get out of here?
呃，我本来应该在那儿的，和一堆人应酬，跟人合影 Well,ahem,I'm supposed to be over there,mingling,taking pictures,
微笑，从饱受金融危机之苦的人们的腰包里挣钱 and smiling. Raising all that money in these troubled economic times.
太糟了。好吧，你把我的嘴打开了 That's too bad.Well,okay,you talked me into it.
我以为你不会问的。先把这一摊子解决了吧 Okay,I thought you'd never ask.Let's slam these.
我想看看你创作的地方 I wanna see where you write.
我可以向你保证，那里没什么好玩的 I can assure you,it's not that exciting.
干嘛不让我亲自评判一下呢？ Why don't you let me be the judge of that?
哇 Wow.
这里，嗯... This place,it's,um...
空空如也 Empty.
是挺空的 Empty,yeah. Mm.
还挺符合我的想像的 Somehow it's exactly the way I imagined it.
真的么？你想像过我搬进新家八个月之后 Really? So you imagined me living in a place for eight months
连一个箱子都没拆封的画面么 and barely unpacking a box?
这里看起来非常雅致，哈蒙德先生 It's very elegant,Mr. Hammond.
我能帮你把外套挂起来么？好的 May I take your jacket? Yes.
看到没，我跟你说过这里没什么有意思的 See,I told you it's not all that exciting.
你在开玩笑么？ Are you kidding?
我可以就你的观点写一整篇学术论文 I could write my entire dissertation on your view.
那是贝比·鲁斯击过的球 That was hit by Babe Ruth.
不幸的是，那是他还在该死的波士顿红袜队时候的事了 Unfortunately,it was when he was a goddamn Red Sox,
但你对此也没法多说什么，是吧 but what can you do? Heh.
楼下有瓶波尔多红酒 I've got a bottle of Bordeaux downstairs
它就等着在这样的时刻派上用场呢 that's just been screaming for an occasion like this.
听起来不错 You know,that sounds good. Mm.
来吧，我们能在这喝一杯么？ Come on. Can we drink it here?
在我书桌前？是啊，可以么？ What,at my desk? Yeah. Can we?
只要我们想，没什么是不可以的 We can do anything we want.
我们都是成年人了 We're grown-ups.
那就把酒拿来吧 Then get the wine.
你的酒。谢谢 Your wine. Thank you.
我们该敬谁呢？ So,what should we drink to?
当然是你的新书了 Your new book,of course.
不如我们敬...？你的新书 How about we drink to...? Your book.
可以跟我说说么？ Will you tell me something?
那之后的事》 What happens?
在老人找到罗瑞之后发生的事 What happens to Rory after the old man finds him?
你能回答我一个问题么 Will you tell me something?
我尽量 If I can.
为什么一个像你这样聪明漂亮的女孩 Why would such a beautiful,intelligent girl such as yourself
却想选择成为作家这种愚蠢的职业 wanna be something so silly as a writer?
哈，愚蠢？ Ha. Silly?
你知道文字能够摧毁一切么？ Don't you know words ruin everything?
我才不信呢，你热爱文字 I don't believe you for a second.You love words.
我年轻，骄纵，鲁莽，有着美国人的冒险精神。告诉我后面发生的事吧 I'm young,spoiled,impetuous and American. Humor me.
可以吗？求你了？ Please? Pretty,pretty,pretty please?
闭上眼睛 Close your eyes.
之后，就像人类文明的历史中出现过无数次的陈词滥调那样 And so,like so many of the great cliches in the history of civilization,
罗瑞·詹森决定，他唯一要做的就是 Rory Jansen decided the only thing to do was
灌醉自己 drink on it.
他喝得烂醉如泥，浑浑噩噩 And so he gets rip-roaring,death-defyingly drunk,
然后他终于鼓起勇气 and now he's got his nerve.
开始思考 And he starts to think.
他让自己将这件事从头到尾思考了一遍 He allows himself to think the whole thing through.
或许是他人生中第一次这样认真地思考一件事 Maybe for the first time in his entire life.
接着他得出了结论 And he comes to the conclusion,
更为恰当的说法是，他回忆起了 or more appropriately,this myth
之前听过无数次的一种说法 that he's heard so many times before,
说出真相将使你的良心免受道德枷锁的折磨 that the truth shall set you free.
嘿，我今天和房产经纪人谈过了 Hey. Guess what,I spoke to the realtor today,
她说我们最早6号就能搬进去 and she said that we can move in as early as the 6th.
很棒对不对？ Isn't that awesome?
我们要买地毯和... We'll need to buy some carpets and stuff...
你为什么会爱我 Why do you love me?
朵拉？你喝醉了么？ Dora? Are you drunk?
我要知道你为什么会爱我 I need to know why you love me.
好吧 Okay.
因为你有一双漂亮的眼睛 I love you because you have beautiful eyes.
因为你总是很严肃认真 I love you because you're serious all the time,
但在你的内心深处住着个小傻瓜 but deep,deep down,you're nothing but a goof ball.
我就是爱你 I just love you.
罗瑞，怎么了？ Rory,what's going on?
你真的觉得我的眼睛很美吗？ You really think my eyes are beautiful?
对啊 I think your eyes are beautiful,yes.
可它们不属于我 They're not mine.
好吧 Okay.
我是个骗子 I'm a liar.
我不是... I don't...
你在干嘛？ What are you doing right now?
怎么回事？ What's wrong?
我不是那本书的作者 I didn't write the book.
你说什...？ What do you...?
那本书的故事，是我偷来的 The book,I stole it.
书是我无意中发现的 I just found it.
我连一个字都没改过。我是说，我... I didn't even change any of it.I mean,I...
我不知道我从谁那窃取了灵感... I don't know who I was stealing it from and...
但我知道这肯定不是我写的 But I knew it wasn't mine.
我被你搞糊涂了 I'm very confused right now.
所以你没有...你...那本书不是你写的？ So you didn't...? You...? You didn't write the book?
里面没有任何一部分是属于我的，连一个词都没有 None of it is mine,not one single word.
我不知道发生了什么事 I don't know what's going on.
它就出现了... It it was there and...
我觉得我内心 I think I wanted so badly
非常希望它是属于我的 for it to have come from me...
你在以为这本书是我写的时候 and then the look,the way you looked at me
你的那种眼神 when you thought it was mine...
让我在一瞬间觉得这本书就是我写的 And for a moment I actually convinced myself that I wrote it.
你相信么？ Do you believe that?
我知道我绝对写不出这样好的文字 I could never write anything that good. I know that.
好吧，所以... 你，我是说，你自己说了.. Okay,so then... You... I mean,you said so yourself...
我说...我说了什么？ I said... I said what?
那都不重要了。什么？我说了什么？ It doesn't matter.What? What did I say?
你应该知道的。你知道对吧，你当时.. You should've known.You did know,right? You knew...
什么意思？ 你当时读的时候就知道 What do you mean?You knew when you read them
这不是我写的对吧？ 我怎么会知道？ that they weren't my words.I knew?
你是那么了解我 You know me so well.
你当时在做巴黎相关的研究 You were doing research on Paris.
我们还刚从那渡完蜜月回来 We had just gotten back from our honeymoon.
是啊，可是你本应该知道的 Yeah,but you had to have known.
你什么意思？我一直很相信你 What do you mean? I believed you.
不，你只是想要相信我。我知道我一直很相信你！ No,you wanted to believe. I know,I believed you!
你想...我他妈一直都相信着你！ You wanted to...I fucking believed you!
朵拉？ Dora?
别碰这个 Don't touch it.
你对我说谎 You lied to me.
在你... When you...
读它们的时候 When you read those words,when you copied them,
你有没有停下来为我们想过？ did you ever stop to think about us?
你有没有想过这会对我们造成什么影响？ Did you think about what this was gonna do to us?
对你会有什么影响？ To you?
我在你脑海中出现过么？ Did I ever cross your mind?
我不能继续呆在这了 I can't be here right now.
对不起，我不能呆在这了 I'm sorry,I just can't be here.
你还真有本事啊 You really fucked up.
我觉得我们要好好想想这事 I think we need to think this through.
什么意思？ What does that mean?
你的书周日上了书评的封面 You got the cover of the book review this Sunday.
这不是我的书，是一个老人的书 I didn't get the cover of this,some old man got it.
你其它的书是自己写的么？ The other book of yours,did you write that?
当然是我写的。但我没有计划到这个 Of course I wrote that.But I didn't plan this.
这不是我计划的一部分 This isn't something that I planned.
只不过每个人都是因为这本书才接触我其它的作品的 But the only reason why anybody ever read my stuff is because of this book.
你不希望这样 You don't want this.
你口中所希望的一切都不是你想要的 Everything you're saying you want,you don't want it.
把我的名字从书上拿掉吧 Just take my name off the book.
你觉得这样做会有什么后果吗？ And what do you think is gonna happen?
你觉得它们会善罢甘休么？ Do you think they're gonna give you a hall pass?
媒体？出版社？它们会把你钉到十字架上 The media? The press? They're gonna crucify you.
而我也和这脱不了干系 And my ass is out there on the line with you.
你把版税抽成分给那个人 You wanna pay this man off your advance,
这才是你该做的事 that's the right thing to do.
你可以买断这部书的电影版权 You wanna cut him into the movie rights,fine.
你就算是要给他买房，买车，甚至是买艘船我都不拦着你 You wanna buy him a house,a car,a fucking boat?
但别因为一个愚蠢的错误 But don't screw yourself for the rest of your life
就亲手毁掉自己的后半生。也别毁掉我的后半生！ for one stupid mistake.And don't you fuck me!
相信我，你不是第一个遇到这种事的作者 Trust me,this isn't the first time an author's done something like this.
千万不要那么做 Don't do that.
你现在或许不相信我说的话 You may not believe me now...
但以后你就会感谢我了 but you will thank me later.
我的另一本书 My book,the one you sold...
卖得有这一本好么？ is it as good as this book?
说实话，乔 Tell me the truth,Joe.
谢谢 Thank you.
我们今天该和你父母一起吃晚餐 We're supposed to have dinner with your parents tonight.
我不太想去 I'm really not up for it.
好吧，我给你妈打个电话 Fine,I'll call your mother.
这件事到什么时候才是个头，罗瑞？ How much longer until this is over,Rory?
你还想怎样？ What do you want from me?
你觉得你是地球上唯一一个犯过错的人么？ Do you think you're the only person on this earth who's ever made a mistake?
你想让这个错误毁掉你自己么？ Are you gonna let this destroy you?
想让它毁掉我们么？ Destroy us?
我们要个孩子吧？ What if we had a baby?
我们一直想要个孩子，我们一直想要组建一个家庭的 We've always wanted to.We've always wanted to start a family.
我觉得我快崩溃了 I think I'm gonna break.
我快裂成两半了，我要裂成两半了 I'm gonna break in half. I'm gonna break in half.
不会的，你不会那样的 - You're not gonna break. - You're not gonna break.
我不会让你变成那样的 I won't let you.
我们能试着忘记这件事么？ Can we just try to put this behind us?
看着我，可以么？ Look at me. Can we?
您今天还好吧？ How are you doing today?
这是什么植物？ What type of plant is that?
香茶菜 Plectranthus.
瑞士常青藤 Swedish ivy.
很漂亮 It's nice.
你来这就是为了对着花草扯淡的么？ You come up here just to bullshit about plants?
不，不是 No,I did not.
如果是来看看我是否打算揭发你的话 Well,if you came to see if I was gonna blow the whistle on you
你大可放心，回家过你的好日子去吧 you should relax and go back home to your great,big life.
我想要解决这件事 I wanna fix this.
没什么好解决的 There's nothing to fix.
这生活是你自己打拼得来的，好好享受它吧 You just go live the life you made for yourself.
如果你什么都不想要的话，为什么要告诉我事情的真相 If you didn't want anything,why did you come find me and tell me?
那对我来说只会是种折磨 It couldn't be just to torture me.
你甚至不知道我是谁 You don't even know who I am.
你不知道我做了什么也不知道我为什么要做那些事 You don't know how,you don't know why.
我只是... I just...
觉得你有必要知道，就是这样 thought you should know,that's all.
你觉得你可以就这样偷走我人生的一部分 Do you think you can just steal part of my life?
任何一个人生命中的一部分 Any man's life?
把它当作是自己的东西 Take it as your own
而不付任何代价么？ and expect there'd be no price to pay?
不，你还不明白么？这就是我来这里的原因 No. Don't you understand? This is why I'm here.
把那东西放回你的口袋里，不然我就要动粗了 Put that back in your pocket or I'll kick the shit out of you.
这不是全部，这是我现在能拿出的全部的钱了 This is not a payoff. This is all I could get out right now,
它们都是属于你的，我会把我的名字从书上去掉的 but it's all yours.I'm gonna take my name off the book.
我会告诉每个人事情的真相 I'm gonna tell everybody the truth.
那你就是一个远比我想像中还要蠢的家伙 Then you're even more of a fool than I thought you were.
- 那这些又都是为了什么？- 为了什么？ What is all this about then? What is it about?
这关乎我的人生！ It's about my life!
我的妻子，我的孩子 It's about my wife,about my child.
是让这些文字得以降生这个世界的欢乐与苦痛 It's about the joy and the pain that gave birth to those words.
你拿走了那些文字，便要承担相应的苦痛 You take those words,you take the pain.
你干嘛不用那些钱买盆植物呢？ Now,why don't you buy a plant with that money?
拿着，一盆香茶菜，你不是很喜欢么 Here,a Plectranthus,since you love them so much.
你拿着这盆花和钱，然后从这儿出去，出去，走 You take your plant and your money and you get out of here. Get out of here. Go on.
我想要让一切都恢复正常 Hey,I wanna make things right.
你没法让一切恢复正常了 You can't just make things right.
木已成舟，实难挽回 Things are just things.
你理解么？不管你怎样谴责自己的内心，都无济于事了 You understand? No matter how you try and martyr yourself.
我还要干活呢，这里没人打理可不行 I've got work to do.This place doesn't run itself.
先生，老先生，求你了 Sir,sir. Please. Sir.
求你了 Please.
我在那之后其实还见过她一次 I did see her one more time.
是么？ You did?
那是在我去上班的路上 I was on my way to work.
多年以来 Over all those years,
我几乎每天都在思念她 I thought about her every day.
为我对她所做的一切而感到心碎 Broken because of what I did to her.
突然，她就站在那儿 And then all of a sudden,there she was.
看上去很开心 She seemed happy.
如果说意识到这件事没有让我心痛的话，那是不可能的 Well,if I was to tell you that realization didn't cause me pain,I'd be lying.
但是，从某些方面来说 But,in some ways,it helped me.
它帮助我走出了长久以来的阴影 Helped me turn a corner.
再度整装待发，不再为过去所困 Pick up again without looking back all the time.
你觉得我丢失了一本小说 You think I ruined my life because I never wrote again.
从此再没写过文章，便意味着我的人生已经了无意义，那你就错了 Just because I lost a book of stories. No,I just...
天啊，你还有那么多的事情可以做 God,you had so much more to do.
相信我，我已经受够写作了 I've done enough. Believe me.
你觉得我已经尽到一个人所能尽的最大的力了 I've done what I can the best that I can.That's all you can ask of a person.
这也不对 No,
我的悲剧之处便是比起那个女人，我更爱自己的文字 my tragedy was that I loved words more than I loved the woman
可是那个女人给了我书写文字的灵感 who inspired me to write them. Heh.
你想为我做些什么吗？ 您尽管说 You wanna do something for me? Anything at all.
向前走，不要回头 Walk away,don't look back.
我们在人生中都会做出许多选择 We all make choices in life.
带着这些选择继续生活，才是人生中最难的一课 The hard thing is to live with them.
这件事没人能帮你 And there ain't nobody can help you with that.
走吧 Go on.
老先生？ Sir?
我真的很喜欢你的书 I do love your book.
我们在人生中都会做出许多选择 We all make our choices.
带着这些选择继续生活，才是人生中最难的一课 The hard part is living with them.
最终，罗瑞·詹森知道了他该做些什么 Finally,Rory Jansen knew what he had to do
他会带着他的选择继续生活下去 to live with his.
《窗前的泪水》 The Window Tears
罗瑞·詹森作品 by Rory Jansen.
那个老人呢？ And the old man?
在罗瑞拜访后过了几周 A few weeks after Rory went to visit him,
老人就去世了 the old man died.
秘密也随之入土 And the secret died with him.
不管他要付出怎样的代价，失去何种珍贵的事物，他都要对此守口如瓶 Whatever he had to do,whatever he had to lose,he would seal it off.
就像是彻底地隐瞒一个人曾经存在过的事实那样 It was as if by locking off the secret of one man's life forever,
他发现了 he had unveiled
隐藏在自己心中更深处一个更为黑暗的秘密 another much deeper and darker secret within himself.
就是这样，故事讲完了 And that's it. The end.
完了 Poof.
没有道德说教，没有因果报应，没有什么醍醐灌顶 No moral,no comeuppance,no incredible gain of knowledge,
我只想证明一个人在犯了可怕的，难以想像的错误之后 other than the belief that one can,after making a terrible mistake in life,
仍然能继续生活下去，并且可能生活得很好 continue to live and perhaps even live well.
人到了晚上总归是要睡觉的 Everyone has to sleep at night.
到底发生了什么，克雷，在他对自己说了那些话之后？ What really happened,Clay,after he tells himself all that?
我刚才不是说了。不，我要你说真话 I just told you.No,tell me the truth.
他继续生活，写作，继续尽着他最大的努力 He goes on. He lives,he writes,as well as he can,
他活得很成功 he's a big success.
胡扯 Bullshit.
我不是在讨论书的内容。你在回避我的问题，告诉我事情的真相 I'm not talking about the book. You're just avoiding. Tell me the truth.
你在害怕什么，克雷？ What are you afraid of,Clay?
为什么不能告诉我 Look,why don't you tell me?
什么？我想知道你心里想的是什么 What? I wanna know what you think.
你是那样的聪明，你成功地进到我家里，你让我和你聊天 You're so smart,you got yourself in here,you got me talking.
你的言谈得体程度超出你的实际年龄，你就在那走来走去 Acting so precocious,throwing your little ass around,
引用莎士比亚的名句，挑动着自己的睫毛 quoting Shakespeare,batting your eyelashes.
你为什么不告诉我呢？我也想知道你是怎么想的？ Why don't you tell me? I wanna know what you think.
他们后来怎么了？ What happens to them?
我...不不不 I... No,no,no.
你告诉我罗瑞和朵拉后来怎么样了，或者你现在就从这里出去 You tell me what happens to Rory and Dora or you can get the hell out.
他烂透了 He's fucked.
继续 Now go on.
或许他可以选择遗忘，或许他能够写作，创作 Maybe he can forget,maybe he can write,create,
但他从来就没有相信过自己 but it doesn't matter because he'll never,ever believe it.
他剥夺了自己找出答案的机会 He's robbed himself of the chance to find out.
不错 Not bad.
或者他其实不会写作，尽管他能够糊弄一些人 Or maybe he can't write,although he's been able to fool a few people.
更好了 Even better.
或许他的婚姻破碎的原因就是他和他妻子对视时 Maybe his marriage falls apart because for him and his wife to look at one another
他们都能从彼此的眼中看见生活的真实面目 is for them to look at the truth.
或许当他出现在公众场合时 Maybe when he goes in public,
他能戴上自信与老练的假面 he can wear that mask of confidence and sophistication,
但当晚上他一个人回到家时，他就会失眠 but back when he's alone late at night,he can't sleep,
因为当他闭上眼睛时那个老人的面孔就会浮现在他的眼前 because when he closes his eyes he still sees the face of that old man.
或许 Maybe
他看见的是自己的面孔 he sees his own face,
那个老人不过是他编出的一个故事，是被具象化的自我否定 and the old man is just a story he made up.
又或许他现在发现自己身处纽约的高层公寓 Or maybe he finds himself in his beautiful New York apartment
俯瞰着公园的景色，身旁站着一个对他来说年纪太小的女孩 overlooking the park,with a girl who's much too young for him,
他正在对她说一个非常老套的故事 and he's telling her what he knows to be are tired old stories.
因为她觉得他能够为她提供些什么 Because for some reason she believes that he has something to give her.
你真的很有天分，迪妮埃拉 You're very talented,Daniella.
但有些时候，你必须在现实和小说间做出选择 But at some point,you have to choose between life and fiction.
它们可以无限接近彼此，但永远不会真正重合 The two are very close,but they never actually touch.
它们是两个非常，非常不同的东西 They're two very,very different things.
什么？ What?
怎么了？ What's wrong?
你不想要我么？不，不，不 You don't want me? No,no,no.
听着，不要觉得这会坏了这里的什么规矩 Look,it's not like you're corrupting anything here.
我想要，我想得到你 I want this. I want you.
我，嗯... I,um...
你该走了 You should leave.
这就是你想要的么... Is that what you really want...
克雷？ Clay?
你到底想要什么？ What do you really want?
对不起 I'm sorry.